i lost many tears this night.
because today din have homework.lol.
does it related?
yea.
this night no need to do homework.
i m so free so that i on9.
then i cry.
i donnoe why do i cry too.
what is the main reason?
just now i cried.
i cried til almost pengsan ady.but other than younger brother(i think),who else noe it?
someone told me before,if i met any problem,she is 24hrs free on call.
every time i feel dejected i will think of her n i wanna find her.
but i scared.
cz my terrible image will spread out to her.
she will noe that i m a terrible girl with a heart which full of selfishness n jealousy(mayb there is a lot of mistake in my grammar,very sorry of it!)& i m not as good as the hoyi who is in her heart.
its suffering.
wat can i do now?
i just hope dat my dear teachers you will gib more n more homework to me.
i don't want to like this anymore.
if one day i really cry dou fainted in my room,how do i explain to my parents?
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
STOP thinking that kind of non-sense poon ho yi!
i will never allow you to lik dis anymore.
fucker hoyi you are a horrible girl.
i met sumthing which hav make me extremely unhappy.
ish.why do i need to beh song with that kind of things?
those are non of my business so that why shall i unhappy of it?
now i noe,i m very sure dat i m just an odinary person and i never will be like her anymore since i give birth on 1996.
i m a normal person.
but she make me wanna be outstanding.
i cannot make it.
i should not think that i will be as perfecet as her.
why don't i be a normal person and a follower?
leader is someone who has potential since he/she give birth in this world.
we cant change it.
and we cant change ourselves to be more perfect.ish.
I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL.
-------------------------------------------------
just now cheryl chia tell me something.
i cried HAPPILY when i noe that new.
but suddenly...
ishishish i dont wana continue saying it.cheryl make me dissapointed.
i noe she have nothing wrong but it will be better if she din't tell me =[
i will never allow you to lik dis anymore.
fucker hoyi you are a horrible girl.
i met sumthing which hav make me extremely unhappy.
ish.why do i need to beh song with that kind of things?
those are non of my business so that why shall i unhappy of it?
now i noe,i m very sure dat i m just an odinary person and i never will be like her anymore since i give birth on 1996.
i m a normal person.
but she make me wanna be outstanding.
i cannot make it.
i should not think that i will be as perfecet as her.
why don't i be a normal person and a follower?
leader is someone who has potential since he/she give birth in this world.
we cant change it.
and we cant change ourselves to be more perfect.ish.
I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL.
-------------------------------------------------
just now cheryl chia tell me something.
i cried HAPPILY when i noe that new.
but suddenly...
ishishish i dont wana continue saying it.cheryl make me dissapointed.
i noe she have nothing wrong but it will be better if she din't tell me =[
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
today someone asked me,
ehh,over ady arh?
what?
neh,about her(she got mention is who la) gea..
...(i din say anything and turned bec my head)
wei!(i 4gt ady how she keep on asking me with a ge po face)
then i go bec to my place n say to laoju:that guy asked me some敏感的话题。(n i thinked she is very free til wan ask this kind of things)
that guy said:会敏感咩？我觉得不会啊？
现在是我敏感还是你敏感捏？!
haha~used too more chinese ady..
anyway i just want to say that today don't noe why i m very happy at all times,i think is that annoying 翻版monkey at my bec gua...i keep on saying some fei hua n she laugh than i laugh..(lame)
and i wana say at here,i will NEVER 4gt bout her..and i nt very und bout whats the meaning of "那件事over了没有"..there was many things about her wor,you say which thing??
goshsay dou her i m going to cry now..calm down calm down calm down...now i feel that i m very 假because i smile at the school and cry at my room(act is at my brothers' room).
i think now no1 will see me as bian tai as b4 ady except my little brother.ytrday he just see me fadian——saying i miss her i miss her NON SETOP.
anyone see me lidat will be frightened becz i m more bian tai then b4 many many more!XD
now i dont wish that CNY is cuming although i noe 岁月不留人.and the last thing i wana say is
想念是会呼吸的痛～
ehh,over ady arh?
what?
neh,about her(she got mention is who la) gea..
...(i din say anything and turned bec my head)
wei!(i 4gt ady how she keep on asking me with a ge po face)
then i go bec to my place n say to laoju:that guy asked me some敏感的话题。(n i thinked she is very free til wan ask this kind of things)
that guy said:会敏感咩？我觉得不会啊？
现在是我敏感还是你敏感捏？!
haha~used too more chinese ady..
anyway i just want to say that today don't noe why i m very happy at all times,i think is that annoying 翻版monkey at my bec gua...i keep on saying some fei hua n she laugh than i laugh..(lame)
and i wana say at here,i will NEVER 4gt bout her..and i nt very und bout whats the meaning of "那件事over了没有"..there was many things about her wor,you say which thing??
goshsay dou her i m going to cry now..calm down calm down calm down...now i feel that i m very 假because i smile at the school and cry at my room(act is at my brothers' room).
i think now no1 will see me as bian tai as b4 ady except my little brother.ytrday he just see me fadian——saying i miss her i miss her NON SETOP.
anyone see me lidat will be frightened becz i m more bian tai then b4 many many more!XD
now i dont wish that CNY is cuming although i noe 岁月不留人.and the last thing i wana say is
想念是会呼吸的痛～
OMG..i really cnt believe that I AM HEAVIER THAN MY MUM.shit.
that day when i hugged my mum up,i have a shocked that i can easily hug her up!and i asked my mum,hw many kg are u?she said she only 47kg!!goshgoshgosh!!
maybe my mum sicked so she is lighter than me...
or maybe i very very very like to it and din do exercise so i heavier than my mum...
anyway..there is NOT a good thing.it will buruk my 名誉 n my mum will oways say:you all gek dou mummy thin already..ish!
so i promise that...I WILL GIVE MY MUM EAT MANY MANY SO THAT I‘ILL HAVE A BIG FAT WHITE AND CUTEY MOTHER.hohohoho~~
03/01/10
that day when i hugged my mum up,i have a shocked that i can easily hug her up!and i asked my mum,hw many kg are u?she said she only 47kg!!goshgoshgosh!!
maybe my mum sicked so she is lighter than me...
or maybe i very very very like to it and din do exercise so i heavier than my mum...
anyway..there is NOT a good thing.it will buruk my 名誉 n my mum will oways say:you all gek dou mummy thin already..ish!
so i promise that...I WILL GIVE MY MUM EAT MANY MANY SO THAT I‘ILL HAVE A BIG FAT WHITE AND CUTEY MOTHER.hohohoho~~
03/01/10
Sunday, January 3, 2010
i saw this it someone's blog so i do it.nobody tag me.XP
32 THINGS YOU DUNNO BOUT ME UNTIL YOU READ THIS.
1. What colour is your toothbrush?
-red
2. Name one person that make you smile today.
-my little brother
3. What were you doing at 8am?
-of cz sleeping la!!
4. What were you doing 45 mins ago?
-playing plants vs. zonbies
5. What was the last drink you drank?
-water
6. Who is the last person you had sent a msg to on Facebook?
-...
7. Ever go camping?
-sure
8. Do you go to church on Sundays?
-nope.
9. What did your last sms say?
-I DONT WANT TO TELL YOU.its private.
10. Where is your dad?
-dunnoe.working gua..
11. Look to your left, what do you see?
-一叠叠的书...像垃圾堆...(in my brothers' room)
12. What colour is your watch?
-white(spoilt ady lu)
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-watching pps XPP...
14. How old are you?
-thirteen and 4months.
15. Do you want to change your name?
-nope.i love it.
16. How many kids do you want to have?
-随缘。（learn from my teacher in mafoXP）
17. Would you like to kiss any facebook friends?
-YEA
18. Who are the best huggers that you know?
-ahdeng~
19. List three favourite colours/shades
-blue,purple,white
20. Have you ever fallen in love?
-yea.but he is not a real man.><
21. How did you get your worst scar?
-when ironing the clothes
22. Do you like cats?
-definitely NO...
23. Do you love anyone?
-thats for sure
24. What do you hope on your b'day?
-can see my idolzzz...
25. Do you plan any trips for your next coming?
-no...
26. What do you do usually during the day?
-sleep,sleep n sleep
27. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
-many
28. Is anyone jealous of you?
-i think got many..see me so pretty..yao smart yao lek...不妒忌才怪
29. Favourite shoe that you wear all the time?
-slippers...
30. Last song you listened to?
-突然好想你。
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
-ah deng~
32. What's your fav number?
-7,14,2,9,4...(so many huh....)
i tag yiqi,ahdeng,laoju,ahxiao,chiazhe,laomu,cheryl,n luoye.
32 THINGS YOU DUNNO BOUT ME UNTIL YOU READ THIS.
1. What colour is your toothbrush?
-red
2. Name one person that make you smile today.
-my little brother
3. What were you doing at 8am?
-of cz sleeping la!!
4. What were you doing 45 mins ago?
-playing plants vs. zonbies
5. What was the last drink you drank?
-water
6. Who is the last person you had sent a msg to on Facebook?
-...
7. Ever go camping?
-sure
8. Do you go to church on Sundays?
-nope.
9. What did your last sms say?
-I DONT WANT TO TELL YOU.its private.
10. Where is your dad?
-dunnoe.working gua..
11. Look to your left, what do you see?
-一叠叠的书...像垃圾堆...(in my brothers' room)
12. What colour is your watch?
-white(spoilt ady lu)
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-watching pps XPP...
14. How old are you?
-thirteen and 4months.
15. Do you want to change your name?
-nope.i love it.
16. How many kids do you want to have?
-随缘。（learn from my teacher in mafoXP）
17. Would you like to kiss any facebook friends?
-YEA
18. Who are the best huggers that you know?
-ahdeng~
19. List three favourite colours/shades
-blue,purple,white
20. Have you ever fallen in love?
-yea.but he is not a real man.><
21. How did you get your worst scar?
-when ironing the clothes
22. Do you like cats?
-definitely NO...
23. Do you love anyone?
-thats for sure
24. What do you hope on your b'day?
-can see my idolzzz...
25. Do you plan any trips for your next coming?
-no...
26. What do you do usually during the day?
-sleep,sleep n sleep
27. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
-many
28. Is anyone jealous of you?
-i think got many..see me so pretty..yao smart yao lek...不妒忌才怪
29. Favourite shoe that you wear all the time?
-slippers...
30. Last song you listened to?
-突然好想你。
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
-ah deng~
32. What's your fav number?
-7,14,2,9,4...(so many huh....)
i tag yiqi,ahdeng,laoju,ahxiao,chiazhe,laomu,cheryl,n luoye.
Friday, January 1, 2010
happy new year<3
haha 31/12 i was quite excited for attending mafo camp's "qing gong yan".
but actually it was BORED.i very regret that WHY do i go teacher chai's house and not as smart as lao mu.
firstly,i go inside the room and some of them asked me to sign on a paper.they wanted to give it to teacher.okay no problem.but at the same time i heard some boys said:"可儿咧可儿咧"NON-STOP.
i did not know what is happening.it was very very weird you know!
and then i quickly take some chicken wing and go beside the carbon.at the beginning i quite enjoy it,and almost wanted to sing——“烧鸡翼～我钟意吃～”...
but after a few minutes,i was feel like 蒸猪笼.its very "heng" but not because of the fire,the there was many ppl beside me and i cant even move at there.
so,i sit far away from there with yiqi and tun tun.n sometimes got some boys come and chat with us.and teacher come and 搭讪,too.she scold(but i dont feel that she is scolding la) me that i dun choi her when she is calling me.n i keep on say:hah??got mehh?gotmehh?
and we chat for a while..the most thing that very funny is,when teacher wanna going to find others,she said:哎呀你们真的让我很难做啊，看着你们又说我暗恋你，不看你们等下又说我不睬你。
that time we were act like i see you,because i love you lidatXDand the thangyiqi say 我知道了的啦，不用酱看我的～when i look at her..OMG!!really beh tahan her lar!
haha~we even boring till sit together n sms to each other==
and,it's something happen..which is annoying me until NOW.hate it.
but i m nt going to say wats happening because i my family will view this blog oso..i dislike my family lidat.sigh.
and i hope yiqi n tun tun won 拿这种东西来开玩笑or simply say to other.
okay...continue..after that tun tun and i keep on walking along the road..cx really donoe what else can we do..haiz~
and when 2010 is coming,we dont even count down!ish!
i heard someone said it is because every1's hp time is different.-___-
-------------------------------------------------------
ummm...now is the time to me to recall what had happened in 2009.
i met 1p9 in 2009.
our gang is very 同心一致.they love 1p9 very much.and i love them too.
i miss my class.
i met her.
she is a ppl who is very fantastic n frienly,to me.
she is my idol.
i love her very much.(not lesbian dat kind,yiak.)
she make me change alot alot.i m not as emo as before again because of her.n she make me 对每一天充满憧憬。
i knows many buddies because of her.awww.
i miss her.
n i met the one who lend me n15&nuclear bomb <33
she tell me that happy is just very simple and she hope i will be as happy as her.
she tell me that everything is not as complex as i think.
when i met something unhappy,she will comfort me.
when i was in the exam,she encourage me.
and i smile like a silly girl when sms-ing with her.
i miss her.
furthermore,i join quite many activities in 2009.
-march,
we busy practising drama.although i am just a calefe(is this spell truely?)n i began gep her during that time.
ohya,almost forget pps welcoming party tim!!=]hee~don't want say too many thing about her le,if not u all oso cnt tahan nie...
-april,
we take part in the drama competition a we only get third in it.but i enjoy it.
i join the english debate activity with luoye,jia qi n tuntun.the thing i most remember about it is,the food is TERRIBLE.
-may,
i argue with my parents because they don't allow me go to the pps trainning camp.
our school is having a concert.ohmygod,when she go on the stage,no,she is only stand on the stairs beside the stage,me jao shouting like held.shit.it is surging!!!yeng dao~~
gg training camp=]i have no courage to recall the scene when our group is presenting the "wo cai".everytime my bro sing "i will follow u~"i will scold him.#.#
-june,
pps training camp.yupe its fun dats for sure.n everyone oso noe that i admired her after this camp.i cry when she n yee sin snr talk to us.i take the 1st photo with her.
-july/august,
if i have nt mistaken,we busy preparing 4 the debate competition.everyday i prepare it n do the gg project til 4am.n we gt the second place in the debate competition.i cried when i heard somebody i hate cry.
canteen day.someone bringme to take photo with her again<3i was happy like held.its the second time(n the last time) take photo with her,n the first time take photo with anjoe pl.
-september,
my birthday.with a lot of blessing n suprise.i was very naive,i hope that she will come n see me boXP
-october,
we have our exam.=(
take part in the project warga=]we met siying,huiling n others.they brought us go pekan.i buy something to my frenz.thanks to them,who are teachers in the future.
i have been chosen as bedahari of afternoon session pps.
-november,
gg farewell.i got cry.shout til cry.when vivien pl,bernice pl n anjoe pl on the stage.n i shout "yo!" shout like held.woaw.
went 4 集训.
21/11 i saw her when i reach at the school.she ngam ngam come out.i saw her.n my bro finally saw her,he say she is pretty.this is his first time saw her,n the last time,too.i know i will never see her again.i know.but i din cry in that day.i was very 坚强.
go for semak stok when holiday.i saw anjoe pl but din saw her.
go ma fo camp.i lead the games.feel lik i becum seniors.tuntun say i m very straight.haha~
go 4 the pps course.
-december,
nt going to say anything bout this month.
i found that this year i buy many red dragonfly series novel.i use my popular which is my second prizes in pantun n 即席演讲&改歌词(nt second prize la)competition to change it.so it is free.
n im going to join the novel competition.i need money.
going to sleep now.
bye computer.
bye 2009.
i will miss u.
and love you,too.
haha 31/12 i was quite excited for attending mafo camp's "qing gong yan".
but actually it was BORED.i very regret that WHY do i go teacher chai's house and not as smart as lao mu.
firstly,i go inside the room and some of them asked me to sign on a paper.they wanted to give it to teacher.okay no problem.but at the same time i heard some boys said:"可儿咧可儿咧"NON-STOP.
i did not know what is happening.it was very very weird you know!
and then i quickly take some chicken wing and go beside the carbon.at the beginning i quite enjoy it,and almost wanted to sing——“烧鸡翼～我钟意吃～”...
but after a few minutes,i was feel like 蒸猪笼.its very "heng" but not because of the fire,the there was many ppl beside me and i cant even move at there.
so,i sit far away from there with yiqi and tun tun.n sometimes got some boys come and chat with us.and teacher come and 搭讪,too.she scold(but i dont feel that she is scolding la) me that i dun choi her when she is calling me.n i keep on say:hah??got mehh?gotmehh?
and we chat for a while..the most thing that very funny is,when teacher wanna going to find others,she said:哎呀你们真的让我很难做啊，看着你们又说我暗恋你，不看你们等下又说我不睬你。
that time we were act like i see you,because i love you lidatXDand the thangyiqi say 我知道了的啦，不用酱看我的～when i look at her..OMG!!really beh tahan her lar!
haha~we even boring till sit together n sms to each other==
and,it's something happen..which is annoying me until NOW.hate it.
but i m nt going to say wats happening because i my family will view this blog oso..i dislike my family lidat.sigh.
and i hope yiqi n tun tun won 拿这种东西来开玩笑or simply say to other.
okay...continue..after that tun tun and i keep on walking along the road..cx really donoe what else can we do..haiz~
and when 2010 is coming,we dont even count down!ish!
i heard someone said it is because every1's hp time is different.-___-
-------------------------------------------------------
ummm...now is the time to me to recall what had happened in 2009.
i met 1p9 in 2009.
our gang is very 同心一致.they love 1p9 very much.and i love them too.
i miss my class.
i met her.
she is a ppl who is very fantastic n frienly,to me.
she is my idol.
i love her very much.(not lesbian dat kind,yiak.)
she make me change alot alot.i m not as emo as before again because of her.n she make me 对每一天充满憧憬。
i knows many buddies because of her.awww.
i miss her.
n i met the one who lend me n15&nuclear bomb <33
she tell me that happy is just very simple and she hope i will be as happy as her.
she tell me that everything is not as complex as i think.
when i met something unhappy,she will comfort me.
when i was in the exam,she encourage me.
and i smile like a silly girl when sms-ing with her.
i miss her.
furthermore,i join quite many activities in 2009.
-march,
we busy practising drama.although i am just a calefe(is this spell truely?)n i began gep her during that time.
ohya,almost forget pps welcoming party tim!!=]hee~don't want say too many thing about her le,if not u all oso cnt tahan nie...
-april,
we take part in the drama competition a we only get third in it.but i enjoy it.
i join the english debate activity with luoye,jia qi n tuntun.the thing i most remember about it is,the food is TERRIBLE.
-may,
i argue with my parents because they don't allow me go to the pps trainning camp.
our school is having a concert.ohmygod,when she go on the stage,no,she is only stand on the stairs beside the stage,me jao shouting like held.shit.it is surging!!!yeng dao~~
gg training camp=]i have no courage to recall the scene when our group is presenting the "wo cai".everytime my bro sing "i will follow u~"i will scold him.#.#
-june,
pps training camp.yupe its fun dats for sure.n everyone oso noe that i admired her after this camp.i cry when she n yee sin snr talk to us.i take the 1st photo with her.
-july/august,
if i have nt mistaken,we busy preparing 4 the debate competition.everyday i prepare it n do the gg project til 4am.n we gt the second place in the debate competition.i cried when i heard somebody i hate cry.
canteen day.someone bringme to take photo with her again<3i was happy like held.its the second time(n the last time) take photo with her,n the first time take photo with anjoe pl.
-september,
my birthday.with a lot of blessing n suprise.i was very naive,i hope that she will come n see me boXP
-october,
we have our exam.=(
take part in the project warga=]we met siying,huiling n others.they brought us go pekan.i buy something to my frenz.thanks to them,who are teachers in the future.
i have been chosen as bedahari of afternoon session pps.
-november,
gg farewell.i got cry.shout til cry.when vivien pl,bernice pl n anjoe pl on the stage.n i shout "yo!" shout like held.woaw.
went 4 集训.
21/11 i saw her when i reach at the school.she ngam ngam come out.i saw her.n my bro finally saw her,he say she is pretty.this is his first time saw her,n the last time,too.i know i will never see her again.i know.but i din cry in that day.i was very 坚强.
go for semak stok when holiday.i saw anjoe pl but din saw her.
go ma fo camp.i lead the games.feel lik i becum seniors.tuntun say i m very straight.haha~
go 4 the pps course.
-december,
nt going to say anything bout this month.
i found that this year i buy many red dragonfly series novel.i use my popular which is my second prizes in pantun n 即席演讲&改歌词(nt second prize la)competition to change it.so it is free.
n im going to join the novel competition.i need money.
going to sleep now.
bye computer.
bye 2009.
i will miss u.
and love you,too.
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